διακοντίζομαι
From LSJ
Μούνη γὰρ ἄγειν οὐκέτι σωκῶ λύπης ἀντίρροπον ἄχθος → I have no longer strength to bear alone the burden of grief that weighs me down
English (LSJ)
Att. fut. -ιοῦμαι,
A contend with others at throwing the javelin, X.Cyr.1.4.4; τινί Thphr.Char.27.13; simply, hurl darts, J.BJ4.3.12, 5.7.3.