aporior
From LSJ
Ubi idem et maximus et honestissimus amor est, aliquando praestat morte jungi, quam vita distrahi → Where indeed the greatest and most honourable love exists, it is much better to be joined by death, than separated by life.
Latin > English (Lewis & Short)
ăpŏrĭor: āri, v. dep., = ἀπορέω,
I to be in uncertainty, to doubt, vacillate (eccl. Lat.), Vulg. Isa. 59, 16; ib. Eccli. 18, 6; ib. 2 Cor. 4, 8.
